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by ocean blue

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i'm not 19 anymore.

just a place for me to drop my shitty recordings so that i can come back to them at a later time.


released July 14, 2016



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ocean blue Fayetteville, Arkansas

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Track Name: before
today i end this youthful vengeance
start my altruistic act
you deserve to have me here
you deserve to have me back

at least that's what i'd like to say
i'm still the same as when i left
smoke a pack, say i'm okay
but then the truth flares in my chest

though i left at such a bad time
know i'm sorry and i'm glad
to have you here again by my side
to fight for what we used to have
Track Name: i guess (i'm sick)
i hate the sunlight that's coming through my window every morning. why is the fucking ac on? i wear hats to hide my hair, showers don't wash despair. this cannot be treated mom, she set my mood for days to come. you're my excuse that i smoked and got that tumor in my throat. i hope to god but pray to none that one day this will just be gone.

i guess i'll live, i'll just exist. i'm scared of love, i'm scared of death. you said you'd stay but then you left. don't tell me what happens next.
Track Name: after
we used to drive around with your tongue in my mouth. but after this last fall truth began to crawl. lying's a one way street. throw away your ring. you said that "this was love". i believed you because we used to drive around with your words in my mouth. undressed me like your doll. truth be told and all, lying's a one way street. throw away your ring, it haunts me. you told me "this was love," but i knew what it was.

from my chest: why'd you do this? feelings all born dead, reconciled by lust. now i am numb instead as they're buried in dust.